We got a fucked up reason to live...
i feel like my life just got totally fucked...
i felt like i finally almost got it back, after this summer, piece by piece, and now it's all falling apart again.
my heart is trying to blow up itself. just for fun.
i didnt want all that.
i wanted just to be me. and to live without problems. at least in my own little world. and it worked. it was nice and empty. i didnt care about anything.
not anymore.
i was afraid of falling in love again, cuz i know that it fucking hurts.
and it's happening.
i hate that. kill me. do me a favour.
when i told him that i would fall in love with hm - i was fucking joking.
but that didnt work out as a joke...
sux.
like all my life.
that just got broken again...
i felt like i finally almost got it back, after this summer, piece by piece, and now it's all falling apart again.
my heart is trying to blow up itself. just for fun.
i didnt want all that.
i wanted just to be me. and to live without problems. at least in my own little world. and it worked. it was nice and empty. i didnt care about anything.
not anymore.
i was afraid of falling in love again, cuz i know that it fucking hurts.
and it's happening.
i hate that. kill me. do me a favour.
when i told him that i would fall in love with hm - i was fucking joking.
but that didnt work out as a joke...
sux.
like all my life.
that just got broken again...
but that didnt work out as a joke...
sux.
had the same trouble around 2.5 years ago. that sucked at first too. but then turned into a completely wonderful 2 year long story which had a beautiful ending. everything in the world ends, but dont think of it when you start. dont think of getting hurt. live in present
i'm trying.
i was trying all my life. but now i give up.
that's enough. i had it all.
my life has never been a bed of roses.
it's not gonna happen.
i know myself.
that's just not the way my life goes.
in reality nobody cares
there are people who cares about u (I do at least!). it is hard and I understand what u feel, but don't blow up ur heart - it doesn't deserve it. and if it falls in love, it's impossible to run away from it