i feel like my life just got totally fucked...

i felt like i finally almost got it back, after this summer, piece by piece, and now it's all falling apart again.

my heart is trying to blow up itself. just for fun.

i didnt want all that.

i wanted just to be me. and to live without problems. at least in my own little world. and it worked. it was nice and empty. i didnt care about anything.

not anymore.

i was afraid of falling in love again, cuz i know that it fucking hurts.

and it's happening.

i hate that. kill me. do me a favour.

when i told him that i would fall in love with hm - i was fucking joking.

but that didnt work out as a joke...

sux.

like all my life.

that just got broken again...